My first full day as a working mom

Although I started back to work last Wednesday, I only worked mornings last week, so today was really my first day as a working mom.  Maddie slept like a little angel last night and didn't wake up until 5:45.  I, on the other hand, spent a large part of the night watching the clock and wishing 6 AM wouldn't come so soon.

After about 45 minutes of cuddling with Maddie, I decided I really needed to get in gear in order to get us both ready for the day.  Fortunately, I had packed her diaper bag, my gym bag, and lunch for Mathew and I the night before.  I let Maddie stretch out on our bed while I got dressed, thinking she would fall asleep since she's been a sleepy head in the mornings lately.  To my surprise, she woke right up and was laying there kicking her legs around, smiling, and chatting away.  I'm not sure which makes the morning more difficult...when she wants to sleep on my chest like she did last week or mornings like today when she's wide awake, and I just wanted to lay around and play with her.  Either way, it's hard for me to load her up in her car seat knowing I'm dropping her off for the day.  The entire day.  10 full hours away from her, which is 6 hours longer than I've ever been away from her.  That's a long time :(

Just as I was about to pick her up to get her loaded in the car seat, she spit up ALL over herself (and our bed).  It was what my sister Lindsay would call a hot mess.  So much for grandma getting to see her in these cute pj's she had on...

I'm just glad she got that out right before I picked her up so it spared me from having to shower and change outfits!  While I stripped the bedding, Mathew got Miss Maddie dressed for the day.  Since she's outgrown the dancing monkey onesies, his new favorites are the yellow chick ones...

This is her giving me the hungry face and saying "but mommy, I'm hungry now since I just spit up everything in my poor little tummy".  I wanted to pick her up and go cuddle in the rocker to feed her, but that's not what working moms get to do at 7:20 on a Monday morning.  Instead, I got her loaded up in her car seat, and we headed off to grandma's, with me trying not to get too upset as she gave me a sad face while I promised her grandma would give her a nice warm bottle.

Although still not easy, dropping her off this morning wasn't as difficult as last Wednesday.  However, I wasn't ready for how hard it was picking her up and hearing what a great day my mom had with her.  One of the things I'm most thankful for is my mom agreeing to baby-sit, and I know she just loves spending the day with Maddie.  However, it was still hard for me to hear what a great day they had together, hanging out and watching the US Open since I'd love to be the one laying around watching the US Open with my little girl.  I just remind myself, if it can't be me, I'm sure glad it's my mom.  She said Madeline was just great today, and she even got a few giggles out of her.  I'd say the grandma baby-sitting arrangement is going to work out just fine for both of them...and I'll eventually get used to it as well.